New post on the way…

July 7th, 2010

I just finished five days of Seane Corn training exploring the three realms of consciousness—physical/mental, energetic/emotional and psychic/symbolic—and how to use these principles in a vinyasa yoga practice.

I wanted to post immediately, but life just got quite busy, and I need a bit more time to process what I’ve learned. Stay tuned!

Birthday thoughts

April 18th, 2010

I’m currently reading Still Here: Embracing Aging, Changing, and Dying by Ram Dass. In it, he shares a passage written by Nadine Stair, an 85-year-old woman.

Having just celebrated a birthday yesterday, it really struck a chord.

Nadine wrote:

If I had my life to live over, I’d like to make more mistakes next time. I’d relax. I’d limber up. I’d be sillier than I’ve been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I’d take more chances. I’d climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I’d eat more ice cream and less beans. I would perhaps have more troubles, but I’d have fewer imaginary ones.

You see, I’m one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely, hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I’ve had my moments, and if I had it to do over again, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d try to have nothing else—just moments, one after another, instead of living so many years ahead of each day.

I’ve been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a rain coat, and a parachute. If I had it to do again I’d travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over, I’d start barefoot earlier in the spring, stay that way later in the fall. I’d go to more dances. I’d ride more merry-go-rounds. I’d pick more daisies. I would live each moment more.

Living ahead of each day and imaginary troubles? It’s like Ms. Stair was writing about me, though in truth, she’s writing about most of us. I can see why Ram Dass said that he always keeps this passage nearby. I plan to do the same.

Untie your wings

April 14th, 2010

I used to watch TV almost every night, even when there was nothing on that I really wanted to watch. As a result, I found myself wasting hours of time on ridiculous fluff.

After a few months of dissatisfaction with this routine, I decided to turn off the TV when there wasn’t something on that I wanted to watch. After a few days, I found that I enjoyed the quiet. I read, I cooked while listening to music, and I organized my home. But lately, another intruder on my time and energy has started to creep in—the Internet. I wrote about this struggle with time-sucking activities at Get Rich Slowly, and I’m sad to say it’s still a daily battle. Some days I win, some days I lose.

What’s the big deal?
Who cares if I zone out in front of the TV or surf the Web when I get home from work? What’s wrong with kicking back and relaxing?

Well, nothing, really. If that is a satisfying way to spend your time. For me, it’s not. It makes me feel icky. That’s really the best word for it. I feel at odds with the way I’ve spent that time and energy. Here are some things that would be infinitely more satisfying to me, in no particular order:

  • Working on my freelance business
  • Writing
  • Cooking
  • Organizing
  • Reading
  • Practicing yoga asanas
  • Working on meditation
  • Practicing piano (I suck at it—this is a wish list, people!)
  • Improving my Italian (and Spanish, and learning French)
  • Sitting outside while the cat plays in the yard
  • Starting a garden
  • Teaching yoga
  • Volunteering in my community

But some of those things sound like work! Well, some of them are. That’s the funny thing about this situation. These activities, even the ones that don’t seem relaxing, give me inner calm. Mindless Internet surfing gives me dis-ease and agitation.

Loosen the knots
I’m not knocking TV or the Internet. I learned most of what I know about cooking from PBS. I work online 90 percent of the time for my freelancing business, which is intentional.

What I am talking about is doing these things mindlessly—reading random blogs, gossip rags, surfing to retailers looking for things to need. You take in more information than you can process. It’s like giving your monkey mind a Red Bull.

Time sucks aren’t limited to technology, either. Most people who claim they don’t have a spare moment probably do, if they were honest about the nonessential things on which they spend time. It’s like people who claim they can’t afford food from the farmers’ market, yet they have a $120/month cell phone plan or 500 TV channels. It’s about choice and priorities.

Yesterday I happened upon the article Untying Our Wings: The Way of Non-Attachment in Yoga + Joyful Living. Author and spiritual teacher Eknath Easwaran writes:

Just as a knot can be untied by reversing the steps required to tie it, [Buddha] says, attachments can be loosened by doing the opposite of what created them. Whenever you find yourself spending time and energy on something you are attached to that doesn’t benefit anybody—tinkering with your Honda, cataloging your music, exploring malls or catalogs to find more things to buy—put your attention somewhere else instead. Again, it’s that simple.

Of course, simple doesn’t mean easy. But understanding brings motivation. Once you see what your mind is doing to you with these little habits and decide you prefer the freedom of making choices yourself instead, you will discover a thousand and one little ways to practice untying these knots every day.

Easwaran recommends that when you encounter one of these knots, some activity that you know is a waste of time, you must disengage yourself and do something that is constructive. “When you can do this, he writes, “you are withdrawing love from that thing or activity so that you can direct it freely.”

The bigger picture
So great. You untie some knots. But what does that mean? Well, in short, it means freedom. We free ourselves from the preoccupations and materialism that we give our energy and “love” to and redirect that to loved ones. “
This increases the joy of living a million times,” writes Easwaran. ”If loving your close ones can bring such joy, the mystics say, how much more joy must come with loving all?”

And if that’s a bit too woo-woo for you, then I’ll leave you with a quote from Fight Club, a movie I am tempted to quote much too often:

This is your life, and it’s ending one minute at a time.

What do you want to do with that time?

Ashtanga with common sense

March 26th, 2010

Also known as Ashtanga for Life, the four-day workshop with David Williams, one of the first Westerners taught by Sri K. Pattabhi Jois. He has had an uninterrupted practice for 40 years.

The workshop format is available on his website. In this post I’ll just sum up the notes I was able to scribble down and the major takeaways from those four days.

On the goal of yoga practice

  • Yoga is mediation, or the cessation of fluctuations of the mind (the space between thoughts).
  • Because one can’t see a yogi’s mind, others may imitate a practicing yogi and do yoga-based exercise, but not yoga.

On asana in general

  • An asana, according to the Yoga Sutra, is a firm and comfortable position.
  • Yoga transmutes stress into vitality.
  • Williams was once told “Try to be a yogi during your yoga practice, and keep that state of mind as go go out into the world. It’ll last 15 minutes and then you’ll be the same old jerk you always were.”
  • The goal of stretching and breathing is to energize the body and increase prana.
  • Similar to bars on a cell phone, the yogi wants to increase bars through practice, where every breath increases prana.
  • Each day, try to figure out how to move your body most energetically. It should feel good so you want to practice the next day. Find the sweet spot in each asana.

On bandhas and breath

  • Bandhas and breathing are more important than anything else. Without them, you are doing yoga postures, but not practicing yoga.
  • In one hour of asana you take in more oxygen than during the rest of the day. Typically we inhale only a spoonful of breath.
  • Mula bandha firms the abs and hardens the diaphragm. Deep breathing without mula bandha stretches the abs outward, adding inches to the waist.

On injuries and flexibility

  • “You should get high from yoga, not crippled from yoga.”
  • Yoga is practiced to increase prana–flexibility and stretching is a byproduct.
  • In any room there will be the most flexible person and the least flexible person. The least flexible person is at no disadvantage in yoga practice.
  • Flexibility is determined by genetics and past injuries.
  • One millimeter beyond stretching is tearing.
  • During asana practice you should feel energized, and nothing should hurt. When there is pain, the body contracts.

On preparing for asana practice

  • Uses a six-step preparation that does not come from yoga, but helps with alignment. Start laying on the back, legs out, arms in a T position. Each step is done four or five times, and as you move your legs from side to side, turn your head to look in the opposite direction of your legs.
    • Foot on foot, moving feet side to side, then switch which foot is on top and repeat.
    • Foot on knee, moving side to side, then switch to other foot.
    • Knees together, side to side.
    • One leg up, side to side, then switch legs.
    • Both legs up, take them side to side.
    • Bend knees, cross legs and hold feet, roll forward and back. Roll to seated.
  • Abdominal work–good for digestion
    • In a wide-leg forward bend, come halfway up with hands on the thighs, gaze toward navel. Exhale.
    • Pump stomach out on exhale, in on inhale, for a count of 10.
    • Repeat two more times.
    • On the next inhale, hold for 10 counts, then exhale.
    • Go to hands and knees and repeat the process.

On asana specifics

  • Minimum practice according to Sri K. Pattabhi Jois is three surya namaskara A, three surya namaskara B, and the last three finishing sequence postures.
  • Williams was originally taught the sequences with no vinyasa between sides.
  • Use jalandhara bandha in forward bends–if you look at your feet, you don’t get the length in the neck. The top of the head moves energetically toward feet, then the chin tucks and the gaze is at the navel.
  • Williams locks his knees for symmetry in certain postures.
  • Use your tight side as a gauge to even out your body.
  • Recommends switching legs for lotus, rather than right leg always folding first. This is where he differs with classical Ashtanga, but he found through his own practice that placing right leg on top was creating imbalances in his body, so he evened himself out by switching the top leg. He has never found anything to support that right leg first protects internal organs.
  • Another deviation is that he holds upward dog for a few breaths to balance the forward bending in primary series.
  • Second series was taught much sooner when he learned it. Students didn’t have to bind in marichyasana D or master drop-backs to begin learning the second series.
  • Sometimes he practices to Pink Floyd. (I just really wanted to include that.)

On diet, exercise, and health

  • Recommends Diet and Nutrition: A Holistic Approach by Rudolph Ballentine.
  • If you are aware, your body will indicate what to eat and how much by how you feel.
  • Williams has coffee in the morning, lunch at noon, dinner at sunset. His diet consists mostly of fish, eggs, rice, and vegetables.
  • Did cleanses in India and would do one again if he became sick, but these days he tries to eat salads and foods that are naturally cleansing.
  • Mentioned the importance of flossing and how it’s tied to longevity.
  • Recommends massage, and if expense is an issue, learn partner massage.
  • Highly recommends swimming as a compliment to yoga for creating symmetry. Uses fins and swims with straight legs to make knees stronger, along with ear plugs (ward off infection), cap (keep in heat), and snorkel (makes breathing easier).
  • He never really gets sick, but if he did, he’d do a swim, steam shower, the minimum asana, lay down, drink water, and repeat.
  • Takes aspirin to relieve muscular aches that constrict one side of the body and throw off symmetry.

On gurus

  • Gurus are needed–the word means to bring from darkness to light.
  • Related the story of two people in a cave. Both have candles, only one is lit. The one with a lit candle guides the way, then turns to light candle of the second person so that person can go on, illuminated.

On life

  • Decided every day that he would wake up where he wanted to be and do what he wanted to do. He wasn’t interested in the materialism he saw around him–he wanted to get real and was willing to give up everything to get everything.
  • Yoga is all day long and changes your view of the world.
  • Mentioned the Katha Upanishad:

This firm holding back of the senses is what is known as yoga. Then one should become watchful, for yoga comes and goes. Yoga literally means to join or to unite the lower self with the Higher Self, the object with the subject, the worshipper with God. In order to gain this union, however, one must first disunite oneself from all that scatters the physical, mental and intellectual forces; so the outgoing perceptions must be detached from the external world and indrawn. When this is accomplished through constant practice of concentration and meditation, the union takes place of its own accord. But it may be lost again, unless one is watchful.

My thoughts

Normally in a classroom-like setting I am one who sits in the back of the room, doesn’t ask questions, and quietly leaves so as not to “bother” the teacher or take up their time. But during this workshop, I was fully immersed and could not leave without thanking him for completely changing my yoga practice.

I woke up the next morning excited to hit the mat, and it was one of the most joyous practices I’ve ever had.

I often hear that Ashtanga is something you practice when you’re young and then you’ll move on to whatever kind of yoga the person telling you this practices. But here’s a man who is in his 60s (and looks 20 years younger), has practiced for 40 years, and plans to practice for another 40. He has possibly practiced more Ashtanga than anyone alive and still comes back to it day after day. He was inspiring and humble, and I still hear his voice during my practice, reminding me to find the sweet spot, move large amounts of oxygen in and out of my body, and that although it’s hard to hold mula bandha in utkatasana, “you can do it.”

I’ve been in a bit of a fog lately–more excited about Ashtanga than ever yet also in a completely different mindset with what Ashtanga is and what it can be. Rather than trying to wrap my mind around it, I just roll out my mat every day, increase my prana, and trust that it’ll come.

Blog neglect

March 11th, 2010

My last post was in January?! Poor yoga blog!

I’m sure to be inspired to write again since the David Williams Ashtanga workshop starts tonight. To say I’m excited is an understatement, and I vow to make time to post some of what I learn!

Cranberry-orange bran muffin yumminess

January 19th, 2010

Behold my bran muffin recipe mash-up, created from a couple of recipes I mixed and changed up. I substituted dried cranberries for raisins, and since orange goes so well with cranberry, I added orange zest and juice into the mixing bowl.

Flavorful, great texture, and full of fiber…couldn’t ask for more from a muffin.

Cranberry-orange bran muffins

Makes 12 to 15 muffins.

  • 3 cups bran
  • 2 cups organic flour
  • 1 tsp baking soda
  • 1 tsp baking powder
  • 1/2 cup cane sugar
  • 2 tbsp honey
  • 1/2 cup vegetable oil
  • 1 1/2 cups water
  • 1 tsp apple cider vinegar
  • 1/2 cup dried cranberries
  • zest of 1 organic orange
  • 1/4 cup fresh-squeezed orange juice

Preheat oven to 350 degrees, and oil the muffin tins. Zest and then juice the orange. In a large bowl or stand mixer, mix together the bran, flour, baking soda, and baking powder. Add the sugar, honey, oil, water, vinegar, zest, orange juice, and cranberries. Stir together (or blend) until just mixed. Spoon into muffin tins, and bake for 35 to 45 minutes, testing with a fork or skewer to see if they’re done. Let cool (the hardest part!).

Current yoga playlist

December 23rd, 2009

Downward kitty.I’m procrastinating for a couple more minutes so I can share today’s 38-minute yoga playlist. What am I avoiding? Oh, just five days to write 49 250-word articles and a rewrite on another piece. I’m busy, but it’s exactly what I wanted.

Anyway, I did a shorter practice today, and here’s what I downward dogged to:

  1. Hide and Seek – Imogen Heap
  2. My Night with the Prostitute from Marseille – Beirut
  3. Epilepsy is Dancing – Antony and the Johnsons
  4. Far Far – Yael Naim
  5. Oh Very Young – Cat Stevens
  6. Samson – Regina Spektor
  7. Lachlom – Yael Naim
  8. Matinee – Hurts to Purr
  9. Paddy’s Gone – Antony and the Johnsons
  10. Cold Water – Damien Rice

Okay, back to work. I was missing my yoga blog, though!

Ashtanga and the reluctant yogi

December 10th, 2009

Check out my article, Ashtanga and the reluctant yogi: A love story, in Yoga Yoga’s Ashtanga newsletter. In it I explain how for me, yoga is like punching people.

I kid!

(Sorta.)

A yoga for every body

December 9th, 2009

When I started to practice Ashtanga, I was in yoga love. But it wasn’t long until I started to hear subtle digs about it. My favorite:

Ashtanga was created for 12-year-old boys.

Or Ashtanga is meant for men because it requires so much strength. Or it’s meant for young people (I guess I qualify there). Or certain asanas should not be done in the sequence that they’re done in the primary series. I’ve joked that it’s the practice that shall not be named, since I’ve heard a few comments start out with, “There’s a certain type of yoga, I won’t say which one it is, but…”

And that’s fine. It’s not for everyone. But the comments confused me because I see many older folks with inspiring practices. As for gender-related comments, I used to train in a smelly, testosterone-filled boxing gym. I’ve always liked playing with the boys, so if Ashtanga is a man’s game, sign me up. And if it is a man’s practice, I suppose the female majority in the classes didn’t get the memo!

The “right” path

I’ve heard negative remarks about several styles of yoga, so it isn’t unique to Ashtanga. (Though when someone is being hypercritical about your practice, thay may as well kick you in the shin and tell you your baby is ugly.)

Last week I watched Enlighten Up!, a documentary about journalist and yoga skeptic Nick Rosen’s exploration of yoga. He takes classes in New York and travels to Hawaii and India, learning from famous gurus like B.K.S. Iyengar and Sri K. Pattabhi Jois. Toward the end, Rosen becomes confused by so many different styles of yoga.

When he meets Gurusharananda, the spiritual head of the Karshini Ashram, Rosen asks how to know which path is correct. Which is real yoga?

In my favorite part of the documentary, Gurusharananda responds:

You came to me. You could have come by cycle. You could have come by car. You could have come by elephant. You could have come by foot. To reach here there are so many directions. That depends on you, where you are at present. It’s not important what you are doing, it’s important why you are doing.

Whichever path is right for you, is the right path. If a path does not work for you, do not take it. Do not take a path because it is popular, or because it works for someone else. Only do what speaks to you. This is true yoga.

After he said that, I thought, “That is the answer to my question.” When I first started, I didn’t have a frame of reference to process negative comments. I thought if someone knew more than me, if they’ve studied longer and with important people, maybe they’re right. Maybe my practice is wrong.

But as Gurusharananda said, there are many ways to get to the same place. It’s not black and white or right or wrong. It’s about finding your path. Does your practice speak to you? Does it change you for the better? Does it teach you about yourself and others?

As one of my teachers told me, “You know when Ashtanga is right for you.” I did, and it is, and I needed to feel confident enough to trust that.

Maybe what is right for me will change and maybe it won’t. Either way is okay, so long as I’m doing what speaks to me. And that answer is good enough for me.

How micro-goals got me on the mat today

December 7th, 2009

Most days, I can’t wait to get on my yoga mat. But today I was feeling sluggish. It’s been grey skies and rain, and all I really wanted was to come home and snuggle under the covers with some hot chai, a good book, and Mia curled up on my feet. Mia is my kitty cat, by the way. I can count on her to be up for a nap on top of blanketed feet.

I don’t like how I feel when I don’t practice, though. So to get myself on the mat when I’m feeling this way, my body makes a deal with my brain. Sometimes the body can be talked into 45 minutes. Sometimes just 30. Whatever is decided, I get in some practice, and I’m always glad I did it.

Today I wanted to practice the full primary series, but all sorts of random thoughts and excuses were bouncing around in my head, such as:

1.5 hours seems soooooo long.

It’s cold and rainy.

Did I mention that the cat purrs when she’s curled up on my feet?

I’m so tired I’ll fall over in sirshasana.

I worked out earlier today; my body needs rest.

There’s that thing I need to do with the stuff. It’s urgent.

Rather than let myself dwell on these excuses, I decided to just get on the mat and take it one asana at a time. During the practice, I resisted my usual urge to think about how many more asanas were still before me (”I’m only at navasana? I’ve got, like, lots more asanas still to go…”). I let myself explore and enjoy each posture, and I finished the primary series. 

When we’re overwhelmed by goal, it’s not that the goal is unrealistic, it’s that focusing on the big picture can make us want to give up before we even start.

This is when micro-goals are useful. If you think of a staircase, getting to the top of the stairs requires a certain number of steps. Similarly, a big goal can be broken down into smaller steps. Once you’ve done that, just focus on the next step, not the top or the third step coming up.

Sometimes, when the larger goal seems too big, being shortsighted can be a good thing.